Hmmm..well I talked about it a little in my first blog. My tumblr name is AnImperfectAngel. I’m not gonna lie I pilfered the actual name from a Mariah Carey cd (guilty), but it does carry some meaning for me. I don’t know much but it seems to me that it’s becoming harder and harder to be optimistic in this world. Nowadays, lying and cheating and using people to get what you want seem to be the norm; everybody expects it and I guess that makes it okay. And everyone just protects themselves by not trusting anyone. Believe me, I’m all for not being naive or even being picky about who you decide to trust. The problem is that when you don’t trust anyone one but yourself, you act like it. You treat people like they can’t be trusted and you make decisions based on the fact that everyone around you probably has ulterior motives. It’s funny because living like that sorta kills the innocence in a person and, to me, it kills the light right out of life. I mean, yeah some people do have the intention to lie, cheat, use, and abuse others but damn if I had to go through life feeling that way about everybody — life.would.suck. Trusting in the good in people, or even trusting that there IS good in everyone means taking a big risk. You risk a lot — your money, your hopes & secrets, your feelings, your heart — but I’d rather risk all of that than be forced to live a life guarded from everyone around me, a life where it’s impossible to be truly, genuinely yourself. Well that’s where the Angel comes from —-> cause I have to believe that there is an angel side to everyone…there’s good in everybody and I try my best to keep my eyes on that. And the Imperfect — hell I have flaws (who doesn’t?) and I know it. I can be selfish at times, I nag when I need attention, I’m a bitch when you piss me off, I have too much pride for my own good, I’m stubborn and honestly I could go on all day (but I bet your list is longer than mine!). But just like everyone else…there’s hell of a lot of good in me, too. Im just AnImperfectAngel out here. Who are you?
10 Day Ipod Shuffle Challenge (Day 1)
“Let This be the Last Time” - Rihanna & Sizzla
This is on my ipod because I love this song and I love that reggae feel. Brings me back to my roots and my fam. But its significance….hmmm well it sorta reminds me of those relationships/friendships where someone really loves you or cares about you and your feelings aren’t the same. [We’ve all had one.] Guess love just isn’t enough sometimes…
“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” —Marilyn Monroe
I feel you girl! No one is perfect, not even I, hence the pen name AnImperfectAngel. Like everyone in this world, I’m on the constant journey of LiFE and with each twist and turn I’m finding more and more of myself—the good and the bad. Anyone that really knows me knows I can be the sweetest girl you’ve ever met and I can also be the asshole you wish you could forget. Most of the time, I’m just a regular girl with BiG dreams complete with endless optimism and a fresh mouth to go with it. I swear my intentions are good even though, at times, I can be a tad misguided. Well I try to learn from my mistakes while staying true to my heart and who I am. But who I am is a work in progress, constantly evolving. And I guess this blog is like a personal diary with a bird’s eye view of that evolution. Hmmm…guess that means YOU’RE looking through the peephole to my soul.